4 months of sobriety 😄

Hello! Today I celebrate 4 months of sobriety and I’m sailing to the Greek island of Aegina from Athens. 😁 Because I don’t drink anymore, I can afford such cool things as traveling to Greece to see my friends (they live here). I consulted the trip with my doctor and there were no contraindications, which made me very happy.

Thanks to not drinking, I managed to plan everything properly and not do it on crazy papers. I didn’t fly hungover, I didn’t drink on the plane and, interestingly, I wasn’t afraid of flying at all, which was often the case before. After landing, I didn’t go for a beer! 😍

When I was walking through the streets of the old town in Athens in the morning I was so happy that I could sit in peace in a pub with a view of the Acropolis and drink a lemonade with resin (a local delicacy from the island of Kos). Before, I would definitely have been drinking alcohol. When I saw people around me drinking, I thanked God that it wasn’t me. 😂 Thanks to not drinking, I can try local specialties – Greek salad, kalamaki, sweets, yogurts, pistachios, etc. Before, not only would I have felt sorry for the money (because it has to be for drinking), but I also wouldn’t feel half the taste because I would be hungover and controlled by fears.

I already hold meetings in my local AA group and participate in organizing conventions. Thanks to this (gaining self-confidence) and decreasing fears, I am able to absorb information better and my cognitive abilities are increasing. I started learning Greek and without fear and hours of preparation, I am able to ask (for now) simple things like "Where is the restroom", "I would like a menu please" itp.

I also help my friend with taking care of a small child, which I am able to do because I do not drink. Recently we cleaned the house and my friend could still take a shower because I entertained the little one. Apart from that we ate a normal breakfast and lunch together. Later my friend and her husband thanked me for my help and said that if I had not been there, not only would the house not have been cleaned but she would probably have eaten only some toast and not normal food. So, I am very happy that thanks to quitting addiction and treating PTSD I am able to add something to other people’s lives and be an active member of a community where there is love.

The happiness I experience is indescribable, the joy and love are irreplaceable. I can handle anxiety much, much better and the worse anxiety states go away faster than before. The hallucinations are lighter, shorter and less frequent. I think that when I come back from vacation I will be able to go to the gym more regularly.

I’ve never been so happy in my life! I don’t mind the company of alcohol or people who drink. A few days ago we went to a restaurant and friends were drinking in front of me and I didn’t feel anything. I didn’t even know they were planning to drink. If I had known, I probably wouldn’t have gone so as not to tempt fate, but here’s such a surprise. 😍

Thank you to everyone who supported me and wrote positive comments! 🥰